March 8th, 2014
As I type this, I’m sitting outside in the sunshine. I can’t see my iPhone screen that well, so this could end up being a post filled with typos- if so, please excuse them.
I’ve had a productive day, and now it’s time to kick back and relax. My feet are propped up, and I’m in awe of the blue skies and temps. After all, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a 59 degree day in March since I’ve lived here.
I smell someone’s BBQ grill, so apparently I’m not the only one cashing in on this great weather.
Dinner? It’s something I should be considering, but right now the only thing I’m interested in is the sunshine and soaking up that vitamin D.
March 8th, 2014
In the past 24 hours- (I started this several days ago and never saved, so that time span is longer now.) two families of people that I care about have lost loved ones. Neither was sudden, one was young (around 30)- the other, an older man, but far from old (in his 60′s).
My heart aches for these families- for their loss, as they try to find peace and understanding in situations that never make sense, but are a part of the journey of life.
I’ve been somewhat quiet lately to most- the exception being my own inner circle. I’ve been in what seems like a constant state of processing and finding some understanding of my own. Thankfully, Marcel has been in less pain, and his diagnosis has begun to sink in. We have a plan and what changes it means for our lives.
During my quietness- I also spent some time thinking about Carol, and the anniversary of her passing- which happened a few days ago. I smile when I think of all the joy she brought to my life, and the things I learned from her without her even knowing. Even now- I’m so grateful to her. She was a gift.
I’ve been thinking about life- and how it seems we, on many levels have become a disposable world. Have you noticed? It’s a topic for another day.
What I do know for sure is that we have this moment- right now and that everything else is a bonus.
Forgive wrongs, don’t waste time on being jealous or petty, and don’t judge others. You have no idea what they may be going through.
March 8th, 2014
A friend of mine was looking at wedding photographer raleigh and other wedding photographers to get ideas for her upcoming wedding. She’s going to be a June bride, and she’s been taking notes on exactly what she wants the photographer to do. I love someone who is not only organized, but also not afraid to let people know exactly what she wants. After all, it IS her special day, and the photos are something she’ll look back on for many years to come.
February 28th, 2014
I guess if there is one word that could describe me as of late, that would be still. I’ve learned over the years that I need to listen to what my body says- and this week, with everything happening, I’ve gone still- at least to most.
Thankfully, my business, and our personal taxes are in the hands of a very capable accountant, and now we await her results.
There’s an old quote- that says “Idle hands are the devil’s playground.” There was a point in time when I would have fully agreed with that saying- but now I know better. Then again- I guess choosing to do nothing, is also doing something. While I am all for productivity and ‘getting things done’- I also know that sometimes, we just need to be still, and still I am.
Call it processing, call it whatever you like. I call it taking care of me.
Tomorrow though, the stillness ends as there is fun to be had- by a trip to the city with some of my favorite people, which will include a trip to Starbucks- and hopefully a little chat with my favorite barista Jose’. Girlfriend time, and a someone who makes you laugh is always a good way to spend the day.
February 17th, 2014
This week, among the neverending ‘to do’ list, is putting together all the tax paperwork for my business. Last year, I had the bright idea to do them on my own, and after spending about 9 hours just filling them in, I decided not to make that mistake again. I was happy to have been able to do them, but it’s not worth the stress and headache for me. This year, I’m paying an accountant to do my business taxes.
I was talking to mom last night about it- and about how I was gathering everything together, and trying to make the process as simple as possible for the accountant, which would in turn mean less fees for me when it comes time to pay her. The accountant I chose mentioned that sometimes people just bring a huge box of papers and say ‘here you go’, expecting her to work her magic.
Mom said that their accountant has mentioned the same type of thing. The thought makes my skin crawl. It is going to mean a little extra work for me, but I see it as a win-win situation for both of us.
So this time next week, I’ll be gathering the final papers and heading off to my ‘meet and greet’ apponitment, and we’ll go from there.
Tax time- gotta love it.
February 17th, 2014
I mentioned that Marcel had some blood work and x-rays done, and that last week we were going to get the results of both. I really didn’t expect anything that time wouldn’t heal, but it looks like this was a time where I was wrong.
It took me by surprise. I wish I could say that it didn’t, but you could have knocked me over with a feather. I’m also very emotional, but so is Marcel, and I knew it was important for me to keep my own emotions in-check around him. He seemed to take it all very well. In spite of my shock- it could have been much worse, and it is something that is manageable with medication. There isn’t a ‘cure’, but at least we have a diagnosis, and at least it’s manageable. I’m so grateful for both.
I know, I’m being somewhat vague on what exactly he has been diagnosed with, but while this is my space, I don’t think it’s fair to share potentially with the world what’s going on with him. It’s not a secret, and you may already know, but if you’re close to use and don’t know, feel free to ask either of us.
For the rest of you out here in cyber-space, I’m sorry.
It has taken me some time to process things, but I am feeling much better. I am a ‘thinker’, so when I hear something that I’m not sure how to manage, I go into thinking overload, and tend to pull away from everyone except those within my inner circle. It takes me some time, plus I went into research mode, so that I can have the most information to be proactive in Marcel’s health.
Thankfully, I have an amazing group of close friends both on this side of the pond and the other. I don’t know what I would do without them, and it’s such a wonderful feeling knowing that even when you are struggling and potentially at your worst, that the people who love you, love you no matter what. To all of you- you know who you are- I’m grateful!
As for Marcel and I- we’ll continue learning to live with this diagnosis and thankfully it’s not something that should keep us from continuing to live an amazing life together.
February 10th, 2014
This picture really doesn’t do these tulips justice, but they are a gorgeous deep red color. To know me is to know that I adore tulips, and that they rank up there with sunflowers and gerbera daisies as my favorite flowers. Plus, yellows and reds- they’re the colors I always gravitate towards. “Live Colorfully” could be my life motto- because I really do believe I embody that in many different ways, my love of color being just one of them.
This is the week of ‘LOVE’- or at least that’s what it seems like almost every company is advertising for Valentine’s Day- Show someone you love them- on February 14th.
While I am a sucker for romance, a good dinner, flowers, chocolates and bling- those ‘things’ does not love make, anymore than February 14th is a day of love. Realistically- it’s a day, a holiday set aside to show people they are special and appreciated.
My question for you is this: Shouldn’t that day be EVERY day? Shouldn’t we be letting people know we love them every-single-day? Shouldn’t they know that we appreciate them not one one day of the year, but ALL days of the year? After all, there ARE 364 other days of the year- and I personally choose to love through them all.
Live, Laugh and LOVE! It’s all part of the journey. How much you invite to your party- is all up to you!
February 10th, 2014
Since we returned from our blissful time away- I’ve been playing ‘catch-up’ with the cleaning around here. In fact, I’m still playing catch up, and have been tempted to get some help from the other woman house cleaning.
I was gone most of the day today- so Marcel was a gem and caught up on the last of the laundry- plus put the clean dishes away. Tomorrow, will be vacuum (again) and dusting day, plus a doctors appointment tossed in the mix. Marcel gets the results of his x-rays and blood work, so I’m keeping my fingers and toes crossed for answers.
In the meantime, there’s work to be done, but I’m determined to be caught up with everything by the weekend- Just in time to whip up a fabulous Valentine’s Day dinner for my favorite guy.
February 9th, 2014
It’s just what we both needed, and a great way to celebrate ten years of marriage.
For Marcel, it was also a welcome distraction to the pending test results, plus it seemed to be good for his pain levels, which was the icing on the cake.
This spot, was out the back door of the villa we rented, and I braved the cold one afternoon, determined to soak up the sunshine, enjoy the quiet, and a cup of coffee. The entire moment can be described in one word- bliss.
I only lasted until I finished my coffee, as the sun started sinking, and so did the temps, but those moments were just perfect.
I love traveling, and while it was a different experience traveling with both JJ and Mister M., it definitely wasn’t a bad one.
Aside from having dinner at a friends home, and a road trip with a friend for shopping- the entire trip was pretty low-key. A rarity for us, since we tend to need a vacation after our vacations, but it was just what the doctor ordered.
February 2nd, 2014
Yesterday, I took advantage of the gap in my schedule and decided to give JJ a little clip around his eyes, plus give him a bath. I’m blessed in the fact that he actually loves the bath, even more so when he gets to take his favorite toy along to keep things interesting.
Granted, it makes for a little longer bath time, but I can tell it brings him joy, so why not?
I mentioned buying a Furminator for Mister M. not too long ago, so yesterday I decided to give it a try on JJ’s fur. It worked like a charm on him too, plus it allowed me to get rid of some of his excess fur, that may have otherwise ended up in his crate or on the floor.
So even though I bought the Furminator for long haired cats, it works on dogs too.
He is now all spiffed and ready for our upcoming road trip, which starts tomorrow. This will be our first time traveling with both pets, so should be an adventure.