Rambling Thoughts

May 20th, 2010

I’m sorry that things have been a little quiet the past couple of days but I have been pondering many thoughts in this gray matter of mine. It has been one of those weeks that on the whole has been really great in some ways, but odd in others. I have been internalizing some of the things, and I thought if I shared a few of them, maybe it would help me process things and stop focusing on them so much.

Bear with me.

  • Two days ago I found out that after 24 years, the man who murdered a friend of mine in 1986 had finally been put to death.   He’d been on death row all that time and I’d honestly come to the conclusion that the tax payers would be paying for him to live out his life in prison.   That wasn’t the case, and even though it was 24 years too late, I’m glad that justice was finally served in the murder of Rhonda Crane.   She was truely one of the most amazing women I have ever known.  I rank her up there with my Grandma Jo and believe me when I say that it’s saying something for anyone to be in the same league with her.
  • Someone I love dearly is struggling with some issues right now.  I can’t go into the details, but this is something that’s gone on far too long and it gets more and more ridiculous as time moves on.   It’s taking a toll on other people that I love, which makes me sad.   It doesn’t help that they try to keep me from knowing how it’s affecting them;  I know.
  • Tomorrow night Ainsley and Olivia will be graduating from High School and I won’t be there.   A & O are the twin daughters of my dearest friend Samantha.   She and I have been friends since we were teenagers and now her girls will be receiving their diploma’s and graduating with honors.   I should be there for all this, plus to go on the cruise with them, yet I’m not.   Sometimes I feel as though I miss out on too many things by living here.
  • I’ve been thinking a lot about Carol lately.   Her birthday is in 8 days, and I have so much that I would like to say.   I seem to be flooded with thoughts of her, and keep having dreams where I wake up with the urge to call her, only to realize that I can’t.   Sometimes, it still doesn’t seem real that she’s gone- but yet I know she is.

These are just a few of the things that are rattling around.   There are many other things- great things, such as some inspiration for jewelry that I came up with, and spending time with great friends and the list goes on.  I’m very blessed, and don’t think for one second that I don’t know and recognize that, but life doesn’t guarantee us constant sunshine, so we have to learn how to deal with the rain.

2 Responses to “Rambling Thoughts”

  1. BethanyC says:

    I didn’t think about the Rhonda Crane case in context of you but now I see that I should have. I read up on the crime during the last week because the execution has been in the local news. What a horrible and tragic story. I know many people are feeling relief this week.

  2. admin says:

    We went to church together Bethany- She was truly one of the most amazing women I’ve ever known. I remember being at my boyfriends house and mom called and said she was missing- that they’d found her car on the side of the road still running.

    You would have adored her. In fact, I don’t know anyone who didn’t.

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