On Harvesting Joy

May 3rd, 2009

Recently, I noticed that the weight of many things had been bearing down on my shoulders, and that even though I was going through the motions of life, I wasn’t really living.

As my adorable, but ever-so-honest husband pointed out to me on more than one occasion, I’d become irritable, and was reactive many times of the tiniest things. In the beginning, I was in denial, and thought he was over dramatizing things, but as he continued to point it out on more and more occasions, I thought that maybe he wasn’t the one that was over dramatizing, but that I could possibly be doing the very things that he pointed out. That meant taking a look at myself in the mirror, and truth is- he was right. I say was, but should really use the term is, because at this point I’m still a bit on the prickly and often too serious side. I’m trying though, and making progress.

Looking back- (hindsight is always 20/20 isn’t it?), I can see where too many things were happening at once- people dying, becoming seriously ill, etc. – and I internalized all of it, and found myself constantly thinking about this-that-or-the-other, and not really enjoying life. Laughter had pretty much become a thing of the past for me these past few weeks, and I made a commitment to myself to get back on track with ME.

It’s taking a little doing, but I’m slowly but surely getting there.

I’ve been concentrating more on things that bring me happiness and joy, and avoiding some of the less plesant things I see on the news. In fact, at this point, I’m avoiding the news all together- at least for a little while.

One of my biggest joys is flowers. I love the process of planting to harvesting, and love seeing the fruits of my labor come full circle so to speak. I also love bright, vibrant colors, and when I came across the field of mixed tulips, in two of my favorite colors (red and yellow mixture), it made me smile.

What brings joy to your life? What do you do, to create a balance in your life, so that the hardships and obstacles of life don’t overwhelm you?


3 Responses to “On Harvesting Joy”

  1. george walker says:

    Beautiful Yellow,Lilies and just a touche’ of Red flowers at time, its the way it goes, I hope your lilies’ are all,yellow if you prefer them, that way but,love is great.
    Tawny Port is my favorite Wine, it is Strong and Has a strong taste, akin to whiskey,, but, it is wonderfully void of taart,taste, and is so feelish,good
    Sometimes my comments seem to me to be inappropriate but, I hope they are bearable to you,..

  2. Maggie says:

    Thoughtful honest post. I support your journey!!

  3. Danielle says:

    We are in the process of ripping out all the old bushes out front and bought a lilac bush, a water fountain and tons of plants. I love being ‘one’ with mother nature and getting my hands dirty.

    I have been going through so much, that this gives me joy.

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