Emotional Cocktails

March 17th, 2010

You know, I am really starting to not like this emotion known as grief. Let me tell you, combined with hormones from that monthly thing, and you’ve got a cocktail for of emotional disasterous proportions. Before you start worrying; I’ll be ok. It’s a process, and while this may seem doomy and gloomy, I just need to purge the thoughts and emotions the best I can, because truth is, my brain is like a tornado at the moment; constantly spinning and too filled with ‘stuff’ to realy do anything at all other than cause damage to my thinking process.

I will overcome, because that’s what I do. But have I mentioned that I hate the grief and hormone cocktail? I actually thought that going through all the emotions I’ve been going through has really helped with my healthier eating, and that it could be better than the best hgh supplements. I’ve actually dropped a few pounds in the past week, and I’m grateful for that. I’ve not been snacking at night, and I’ve been really keeping a close eye on my portion controls. Until last night. I ate some chocolate, and truth is, it was too sweet. I was happy to see that because I knew that meant I would be discouraged from eating it in the future, but then I chased the sweet away with a handfull of cashews.

Today is a new day though, and even though I woke up with tears in my eyes, I’m determined to make it a good one. I’m having lunch with friends, and that’s something to look forward to.

Y’all just bear with me while I go through all this. I try not to talk too much about how I’m feeling, but I think that’s doing more harm than good, so I’ve got to get it out somehow. Maybe I should move this to a private place and offer access to certain people, because I’m not sure I want everyone to know what I’m thinking or feeling. Definitely something to think about.

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