It goes without saying that anyone who knows anything about me would know that somewhere along the 100 day road, that the amazing Mister Mistoffelees would show up on my list of “Happy”. This cat is my shadow- my constant companion and the true definition of unconditional love. It’s no secret I adore him- and he not only brings me happiness and joy on day 9, but every single day.
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April 14th, 2014
Late last week, a dear friend dropped me an email to suggest that she drive over from the city she lives in (about an hour from me), pick me up, and for us to go spend a few hours walking on the beach. We both find comfort in the sand and water, and I suspect she knew how I had been feeling, unable to get out and about as usual.
Since I was feeling better and slowly getting into the swing of things, plus always love spending time with her, it didn’t take me long to say YES!!
I don’t know about you, but there is something calming about walking along a virtually deserted beach. We talked and talked, laughed and explored. It was food for the soul. I was so grateful to her for the suggestion.
The beach was full of these shells, which we weren’t sure of. She felt sure they were a sea urchin of sorts, and I was going between that and a variety of sand dollar.
As anyone who knows me personally can contest- I have a natural, never-ending curiosity, so that became my afternoon project- to find out ‘what’ this was. After much searching and even a quick poll on my Facebook, I was able to find that it is indeed a type of sea urchin, and when they die they lose their spikes. This variety is known as a sea potato, and when alive- it does indeed look like a furry potato, color and all.
With the help of my dear friend, I managed to find a few that were whole, and I brought them home. They are now drying in the sunshine outside.
It was a simply amazing day- new discoveries, long walks, and all in the company of a great friend.
At the end of our 4 plus mile walk- we stopped in for coffee and tea at a local beach cafe, where we continued to laugh and fill our souls.
I can’t imagine a better way to spend the day.
April 5th, 2014
After much of laying low and giving myself some proper time to heal, I’m finally getting close to attempting to ‘press play’ on regularly scheduled life again.
I’ve had plenty of time on my hands- and that means plenty of time to think (more so than usual), plus also plenty of time to make a few decisions, and a few upcoming choice that will be life-changing.
What started out in a great lesson of patience has given me so much more. Aside from Marcel, and one visit from a friend- I’ve been pretty self isolated. I haven’t been typing much since it irritates the arm, so I got used to my own company fairly quick. I like my company, so it wasn’t hard.
I had plenty of offers for people to come over and even bring food, but Marcel said he had it- so I let him do his thing. He’s been great.
I’ve noticed a shift around me since all this. Maybe it’s me, or maybe there is something in the air- but things have definitely changed.
I’m grateful for the time, but I admit- I can’t wait to get back in the swing of things. So many great things to look forward to! Parties, weddings, and other festivities. Plus a possible house full of people here from out of town- staying my birthday week. So so much fun in the pipeline- and a lot of great work projects. Bring it on!!
Slowly but surely- baby steps- I’m getting there.
March 22nd, 2014
Some of you who know me, may know that I am on complete bed rest. It hasn’t been ideal, even remotely so, but one of those necessities to keep from adding insult to injury, so-to-speak. I’m not used to having to sit still for so long, nor am I used to having to be totally dependent on someone else. Both of the aforementioned have been a learning experience for me.
I am now sporting two braces and a sling for my arm, and in spite my protests (which got me here in the first place)- I’ve learned that listening to my body is a necessity. My mind may think it knows better, but the true lesson is in realizing that our body gives us signs. The wisdom is in learning to listen and do what is best, even when it isn’t ideal for what we may want to do.
This afternoon, I did take a little whole to sit in the sunshine. I knew theThis too shall pass.
March 19th, 2014
This is one of those ‘on location’ posts, and this time the location happens to be the comforts of the sofa, with iPhone in hand. (Thank goodness for the WordPress app.)
Those who know me personally know that I am a lefty, and as it so happens my left arm is currently sporting not one, but two braces, in promotion of healing.
I love to relax and have my ‘down’ time just like the next person, but there is definitely such of ‘too much’, as is the case here.
My left arm is on complete house arrest- with the key letters being REST!! I thought I could try not using my arm, but that hasn’t worked, resulting in aforementioned braces and a banishment to the sofa and/or bed, whichever strikes my fancy.
Marcel has been a champ, and has been taking care of everything, including cooking- after a couple of impromptu cooking lessons. My mother in law has the dog while Marcel is working, and it has been Mister M. and I.
I realize that I don’t make a good person of rest, but I know my body (arm) needs it to heal so I’m doing my best.
Arm aside- the rest of me wants to write a few hand-written letters, a couple of articles, plus I have some fantastic ideas for cakes and caramels. (Excess time makes for good brainstorming sessions.) Thankfully, I have amazing friends who have not only offered to come bring food, but also to come help do anything in house that needs doing. I love them for that, and also for their patience in me not being able to come out and ‘play’.
It isn’t for lack of desire, that’s for sure.
I believe all experiences have lessons, and this has not only been teaching (I say that because I still don’t have it down pat) me patience, but also the importance of doing what my body needs and requires of me, even if not convenient.
Mostly, more than ever- I am fully aware of just how blessed I am.
March 15th, 2014
I was out walking a few days ago and even though I ‘knew’ the signs of Spring had been popping up everywhere (thanks to my over-active allergies, plus the abundance of daffodils and crocus I’ve been seeing), I still can’t help but smile when little signs pop up in unexpected places. These tiny little violets, were a vibrant burst of color at the base of some bushes that haven’t yet shown any sign of life.
It reminded me of a quote I read recently from The Dance of the Dissident Daughter. It reads: Hardly anything reaffirms birth to me like daffodil bulbs. Put those seemingly dead brown lumps in the ground, and they will defy rock, storm and pestilence to emerge and unfurl themselves.
I’ve read that quote quite a few times since I first came across it, and each time it resonates with me more. Not simply on a nature state of going from one season to another, but also, how no matter how unlikely things may seem- or even impossible, that if we stay focused on the goal at hand- and don’t allow obstacles to stop us, but instead make us stronger.
It is a reminder to me on this grey day, that no matter how things may appear- there is always something bright and shining waiting to come through.
March 8th, 2014
In the past 24 hours- (I started this several days ago and never saved, so that time span is longer now.) two families of people that I care about have lost loved ones. Neither was sudden, one was young (around 30)- the other, an older man, but far from old (in his 60’s).
My heart aches for these families- for their loss, as they try to find peace and understanding in situations that never make sense, but are a part of the journey of life.
I’ve been somewhat quiet lately to most- the exception being my own inner circle. I’ve been in what seems like a constant state of processing and finding some understanding of my own. Thankfully, Marcel has been in less pain, and his diagnosis has begun to sink in. We have a plan and what changes it means for our lives.
During my quietness- I also spent some time thinking about Carol, and the anniversary of her passing- which happened a few days ago. I smile when I think of all the joy she brought to my life, and the things I learned from her without her even knowing. Even now- I’m so grateful to her. She was a gift.
I’ve been thinking about life- and how it seems we, on many levels have become a disposable world. Have you noticed? It’s a topic for another day.
What I do know for sure is that we have this moment- right now and that everything else is a bonus.
Forgive wrongs, don’t waste time on being jealous or petty, and don’t judge others. You have no idea what they may be going through.
November 7th, 2013
There are many things that make me happy- spending time with people I love, notes from friends, Marcel bringing me coffee in bed to kick off my day, my favorite app (appropriately named HAPPIER- check them out at happier.com) which is all about focusing on and sharing lifes little happy moments. The people behind the app are also amazing, which makes me love the app even more.
In honor of focusing on more of what makes me happy- I wanted to share a few of the things that have recently made me happy- Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks. I literally did a happy dance when I saw the sign at the store. From there I commenced to drink one every single time I went to Starbucks.
Pumpkins- (I promise there isn’t a theme here.) I’m not sure if it’s the color orange, or the fact that I love Fall, or just pumpkins in general, but they make me smile every time.
I’ve purchased quite a few this year, oasted them, pureed them and given them a prominent place in not only quite a few recipes thus far, but also a spot in my freezer so I can enjoy them all winter long.
Van Gogh’s Sunflowers – Realistically speaking, any and all sunflowers grab my attention, but there is nothing quite like the Van Gogh version. Starry Nights is another of my favorites of his- but I keep two photos of one of the originals (this one taken recently) on my phone. When I want a smile, I look at the picture.
I’m curious- What makes you happy?
June 16th, 2012
I thought I would make great use of my train time this morning by tapping out a few words on my phone while traveling.
My morning travel to the train was a rainy one but the iPhone weather man promises that it’s going to clear, which I hope since our fun adventure is all outside- with the exception of the shops we venture in to.
One thing is for certain- I know it will be fun, especially after I get my morning wake up cup of Starbucks!! Boy do I need that. I skipped the coffee at home and I’m feeling it.
This girl is dragging!!
I’m being slightly entertained by a group of young guys- teenagers who one of which failed to get a train ticket and has now been stopped by the conductor who is far from amused by their lack of traveling without a ticket. Needless to say their 5.00 ticket is now costing them 60.00 for traveling without a ticket. The conductor has moved on and the boys are still discussing and letting the expletives fly. Sorry boys, you’ll find no sympathy here. You play with fire and you eventually get burned.
As I type this the sun has started peeking out from behind the clouds, asking me to just be patient and promising more of the same.
It’s going to be a great day!!
February 18th, 2012
For days after I started having problems with vertigo I fought it. I attempted to continue on as normal (which didn’t work), and I ended up creating a lot of stress for myself. I couldn’t relax. I was constantly thinking of what I wanted and needed to do and how much this vertigo was keeping this from happening.
Two days ago when I started feeling a lot of sinus pressure, I found myself even more stressed. (If that was possible). I had weekend plans and other things around our home that needed doing but weren’t getting done and I couldn’t stand without falling from one side to the other.
I was fighting this whole thing tooth and nail. For what? I have no idea because it hasn’t made any difference in how I feel.
Finally I asked myself what would happen if I resigned myself to the fact that this is one of those things that is happening and I can’t change it so why not just relax?
So that’s where I’m at right now. I’m learning to relax and wonder if this isn’t a lesson to tell me to slow down and stop speeding through life.
One thing is for certain, this forced
down time is giving me some time to think. We are always changing and growing and there is something to learn here- I just haven’t seen the full